When is it going to get easier?

I'm afraid it's been too long to try to find the reasons why
I let my world close in around a smaller patch of fading sky
But now I've grown beyond the walls to where I've never been
And it's still winter in my wonderland

I'm waiting for the world to fall
I'm waiting for the scene to change
I'm waiting when the colors come
I'm waiting to let my world come undone

I close my eyes and try to see the world unbroken underneath
The farther off and already it just might make the life I lead
A little more than make-believe when all my skies are painted blue
And the clouds don't ever change the shape of who I am to You

I'm waiting for the world to fall
I'm waiting for the scene to change
I'm waiting when the colors come
I'm waiting to let my world come undone

When I catch the light of falling stars my view is changing me
My view is changing me

I'm waiting

--Jars of Clay

I want to be on my own! I want to be able to do things without having to ask for permission, I've always been responsible, I've never made any bad decisions before... (and no I didn't get the tattoo) Why must they insist on treating me like a child?

A while back I got in a fight with one of my friends and during that time I had a night class at USF so I'd stay with her on those nights but when we got into the fight my dad said that I could stay with Justin instead (this was a while back mind you) I can stay with him but I can't move in with him. Dad says that I should marry Justin before I live with him. Two days ago my mom tells me that Dad told her that he doesn't like when I stay with Justin. I wasn't happy, he was after all, the one that told me I could stay with him. I reminded her of this fact and I also told her that I'm patient with things that they want me to do (or not do) and I listen to them in pretty much every aspect of my life but this, I told her, was mine. And that it wasn't going to change and that I don't mean any disrespect but he was going to have to get used to it. I've grown too much for this house, but they won't let me go. When the time comes for me to talk to my dad about moving with Justin, it's going to be interesting because I won't be asking for any financial help from him, I'm going to be able to pay rent by myself. And he won't have that excuse anymore.